“Can Jazz and I go see a movie after school?” Roderick texted me one day.
“If Tyler and
Angeline want to see it too you guys can come too” he added.
I checked into it
and bought tickets for all of us then texted Roderick that we’d all go together.
“I really wanted
this to be only Jazz and I” he texted me.
“You said we could
all go.”
“I only did that to
be nice.”
“You shouldn’t have
said that if you didn’t mean it.”
I told him Jazz and
him were welcome to sit by themselves somewhere and we wouldn’t bother them but
that I had already bought tickets so we would go too.
Before school was
over for the day he texted me saying, “mom, family is important too, we can all
go together.” Roderick was always so
willing to apologize especially to the people
he cared about.
Memories are so
precious now that that is all we have. Three weeks ago I went through Roderick’s
room, up until then I had left it the way it was. I replaced the carpet and got it ready so
Tyler could use it as his computer room.
I didn’t find it that hard at the time but the following two weeks were
hard ones, it seemed tears were on the surface all the time. Then on Monday it seemed like the heaviness
lifted all of a sudden. I had days that were hard
and days that were easier but to actually feel the heaviness lift was something
I hadn’t experienced before. God works in
unexpected ways. Now I really enjoy going into the family room downstairs where I'm surrounded by so many momentums that bring back memories.
We had some display
cabinets in the Family Room downstairs where Roderick spent so much of his
time. We hung the framed Jersey up on
one wall on the other wall I hung his framed medals and ribbons and I had a
posture printed to go in between. In the
display cabinet I put his collection of knives on one shelf, his trophies on
another his personal belongings like wristwatch, wallet, etc. on another and so
forth. I'm glad I did that even if it was painful.
Friends Remember
I remember whenever he got his quad stuck and I was with him
he would always make me go off of it and push it out of the mud. I also remember he got the truck stuck in a
ditch at the farm and also made me push it but he was such a great guy and
always knew how to make me smile. He
honestly made me so happy and always showed how he cared even if it meant
punching me or making fun of me.
Roderick was the most funniest, craziest and most
adventurous guy I have ever met. Once
he grabbed my arm and almost pushed me near the fire, he grabbed me back so I
wouldn’t fall and scared me so bad.
He was always eating food when I was around him, every time
I would be hungry he would offer me a sandwich or a juice box. Even though he always punched and pushed me
and annoyed me at the end of the day he always helped me with my problems and
never pushed me away.
He taught me how to be confidant in who I am. I remember telling my mom I was inviting a
friend over and they expected him to be a girl and when he walked in my mom whispered
to me "is that a girl?" Thanks for reminding me I was beautiful when no one else was.
I remember when I first came to MBCI the first person I
talked to was Rod. He instantly accepted
me into his group of friends. Later that
week he threw me in the bushes for no reason.
We frequently had all out wrestling matches, the last one was just a
week before him leaving, that was the last time we had a lot of fun together.
Last year at service day the Chaplin commissioned Roderick
and me to find this smell and promised us $5.00. After searching for an hour and a half we
determined it was the garbage. We took
out the garbage and the guy gave us two halves of a five-dollar bill.
You and a friend were shooting bb guns and I told you not to
shoot me but you did anyway and the next day at school I had a whole bunch of welts on my hand where you shot
me. I will never forget you, you were so
amazing.
Sup Rod. It’s you
spare buddy. Man it was so awesome having you in my spare. I wouldn’t have asked for anyone besides
you. We did so many dope things during
our spare. From climbing bridges to
skateboarding to trying to make fish nets out of things we found by the riverbank. From the day of our first spare I would look
forward to chilling with you cause I knew we would do something exciting no
matter what the situation was.
At Red Rock some friends and I were in a paddle boat and got
stuck in some seaweed. We weren’t able
to get out without getting wet so you volunteered to get us out. When you untangled our boat from the weeds
and got out of the water you had bad scars all over. You never let me forget that day and what you
went through to get us out.
I remember when we were in gym and I was standing on the
ledge by the workout room and you came up behind me and like pushed me but held
onto me so I didn’t fall and after you said “I just saved you life!" I remember the funny faces you would make
randomly at me.
Ts a great idea to write out your memories. It will help you remember.
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