First Christmas

Christmas 2015

Christmas 2005

First Christmas

   Well the first Christmas since Roderick left us has come and gone.  What do I write now; I’m still sitting here with tears streaming down my face.  I had not expected Christmas to be so difficult.  I pray that we will be able to use this valley as another step toward complete healing.  One of the things I have started to pray for is that we as a family, all four of us, will experience complete healing.  I hear so many mothers saying that the pain never stops you just get used to it, or something similar.  My sister talked to one mother who lost her son five years ago and she said the Lord had been so gracious to them, their son was always with them but they were no longer grieving, that encourages me.  Healing is possible.  I know it will take time but I believe there is healing with the Lord, I believe He can and will heal us.  I don’t believe it is His will for us to endure pain for the rest of our lives.  We will always have the scar and we will always have a part of our family not physically with us but we can heal and we can have a happy life and experience a happy Christmas again.  My prayer is also that we will use this experience to build stronger relationships and tighter bonds between the four of us and also with friends surrounding us.  That is part of the beauty that God can make out of tragedy, the trash that can turn into gold.  The devil, who’s to blame for all the tragedy in this world by bringing sin into it, will also do his utmost to use this for his benefit and turn us against each other and against God in any way he can by filling our minds with lies.

   I want to thank all the many friends and family who have taken the time to remember us in your celebrations and sent us messages of encouragement.  Every one of them has meant a lot.  Two of Roderick’s friends stopped by with a gift, two more have promised to stop by and one of them sent an email.  I feel so special when Roderick’s friends miss him and will go the extra step of letting us know.  Thank-you for allowing God to use you to send us comfort and strength to keep going.  Never think those actions are in vain.  God bless You all and Happy New Year to All.